Organized Mess

Was thinking randomly (as always) in the car earlier, and came to the conclusion that it must suck to be born on February 29. Because, well...you only get your birthday every four years. In between the leap years, it doesn't really exist. Ergo, it sucks to be born on February 29.

Anyways!

Going to Hong Kong tomorrow. Another one of those surprise trips my mother sprung on me. Starting to think that I should get used to it, but at least I got a couple of days to get ready this time. Last year, I had less than 24 hours. I'm stoked, though. I've been wanting to visit HK again for quite some time now!

I have to squeeze in time to get a medical exam done (and THAT I am not looking forward to) and to finish my module for work before my flight. And did I mention I have to go to work as well? Good luck nalang sakin.

I had a dream last night...and will absolutely not reveal what it was about, but jeeeeeeeeeeebus what a dream.

There's someone I can't (annoyingly) stop thinking about. Never really paid any attention to him before; a stupid mistake on my part was passing judgement on him because of the people he's associated with, before I actually got a chance to talk to him. This is most probably just a silly schoolgirl crush. He's just so nice. And smart. And off limits. Hahaha. Darn it. Silly me.

Have been contemplating several things the past few days. I miss having time for myself, for my friends, for the things that I used to enjoy doing. Because ever since I've started work, I haven't had time for anything else...besides sleeping to get my energy back. And my job? Wicked stressful. It doesn't seem like it at first, but it's one of those things that you actually have to go through to get how much it beats the crap out of you, physically and emotionally. The most exhausting part about it is the constant smiling and pretending you're still fine and dandy and bubbly even if you're the exact opposite, and you're so tired you just want to lie down ANYWHERE and sleep. And resisting the urge to smack the wits out of stupid customers, especially those who think it's a-okay to take their anger out on some random stranger over a stupid cup of coffee.

And then there's the having to deal with people who work with you who aren't that...awesome. It just makes the things that are already bad a whole lot worse.

Although don't get me wrong. I still love my job, and there are times that I get reminded why I love it. I've just been contemplating. Nothing is set in stone.

In other news...I am loving Urbandub's "Evidence". Joko and Carla definitely know why. Haha. The three of us went to UP Fair a couple of weeks ago in the hopes of catching Urbandub perform and we waited and waited and kept telling ourselves that they were the next band onstage...but alas, we had to go home and still no Urbandub. :( I think they were the last band to perform. Rarrr. We all had work the next day, so we were all kinda lame and couldn't stay very late. Hehehe. UP Fair was an awesome time though. Yehey for perya games (and being absolutely terrible at them) and tarot cards that are scary accurate.

Am also loving "Love Song" by Sara Bareilles, thanks to Joko.

I just got back from a closing shift at work. Knackered and sleep-deprived. It's the way I've been for the last few days. Wah. Also have been more moody than ever, but maybe this is because it's February and I'm overwhelmed by memories of this month from last year, plus recent tiny turmoils going on in my life.

The 10th marked my grandpa's 9th death anniversary. Drove to Mandaluyong with relatives to visit his grave.

At the risk of sounding like your typical bitter singleton, screw Valentines day. Good thing I have work on the 14th so that I have a valid excuse when people grill me for not having a date. Like it's such a bad thing. The only thing I hate is that I'll surely be remembering Valentines day last year. Specifically, the person I spent it with.

You know what typical bitter singletons need, and need really badly? Amazing friends. I'm lucky enough to have those. Carla & Joko, remember "the pact". Iya and Alden and Eve and Jean and Faye and Jewels and everyone else whose company I enjoy, let's hang out sometime kasi miss ko na kayo!

I saw someone, after a long time of not a single peep. I thought it would be okay, I thought I had moved foward, but it was when he was standing just a few feet away that I felt like Pandora's box had been opened and I realized that I still feel a lot for him, and that I miss him. And now I can't stop missing him.

Takte. Ano ba ito. Confuzzlement! And this entry is pretty much one of those "blog for the sake fo blogging" posts, so I'll throw in a picture to make it a little less boring:

So the "save up" part of my resolutions for 2008 isn't off to a fantabulous start. Actually, it's off to an astoundingly BAD start. Darn it. MUST PUT IN MORE EFFORT INTO SAVING!

Went to Tagaytay earlier with Joko. Food, pictures and chika. Loves it. Diets cease to exist when you are with good friends, I swear. And what's a Tagaytay trip without stopping by Starbucks to harass our favourite barista, Uly? (But, Carla & Joko, dapat favourite barista nyo na rin ako!) Laughtrip with Uly over the "barista smile"! Such a shame that CB couldn't come along. She's at home with the sickies. GET WELL SOON, CARLA! WE HEART YOU HEAPS! Lesbos. Harharharhar.

Work is still a-ok, have decided not to waste my time with certain possibly problematic situations and am currently learning how to not have my blood boil whenever I encounter a stupid customer. There was one the other night that made one of the stupidest comments I've ever heard: "This doesn't smell like coffee." And it was regarding his tall Americano. That thing is made up of 2 shots of espresso and water. What the fuck. Then he changes his story and says that it doesn't taste like coffee, but his drink was still full to the brim and didn't look like it had been sipped at all, so how the hell could he have known what it tasted like? Anyways, he got his drink re-made in the exact same way I made it, and then he was like, "Okay, this is great." STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPID! But other than random precious gems like that moron, things are still dandy.

I met someone. :) Let's see where it goes, yes?

I need to sleep! Going to watch the National Treasure sequel with Gracie tomorrow! Este later pala.

Goodbye 2007, and hello 2008!

I have many, many resolutions for the new year. Keeping a positive state of mind so that I'm a happier person, not being afraid of love, quitting bad habits, working out regularly, etc.

2007 was mostly a bad year for me, although there were many amazing and fun moments throughout the duration of it. I did discover that I'm a tougher cookie than I thought I was, and I am definitely going to learn from the mistakes that I made this year.

I don't know if the beginning of 2008 can be considered an ultimately fresh start, but I guess it can be considered as an opportunity to cleanse ourselves of the grudges and negative bits of 2007. I don't hate him or her anymore; but at the same time I don't want to be friends with them. And I guess it's okay that way.

2008 is going to better. It has to be. It WILL be.

And as for materialism...I bought a Christmas/New Year present for myself: a phone! It's a spiffy piece of technology, I'm quite happy with it. Now I want new hair and a new tattoo, among other things. But let's start with the physical attributes muna. Harharhar!

1. I have a job and it's where I have been 90% of the last couple of months. I work here:

So far, I love my job and the people I work with. It's heaps fun albeit tiring, and has now caused me to be some sort of crazed workaholic who can't even spend an entire day at home on her day offs without going insane from boredom. When I'm at home, I'm sleeping and if I'm not sleeping then I'm missing the store. I've gone bonkers.


2. My cousin gave birth almost 2 months ago to an adorable baby girl (who is like her mini-me!), who is now Martina Chloe Crisostomo.


3. There is a guy...and I like him? Hahaha. He is not what I have usually gone for in the past, and he has pissed me off more than once now, but still...I like him.

4. One downside of always being at work is that I haven't seen my friends for a loooooong time, and I miss them heaps, and so must make plans with each and every one of them soon!

5. Albeit I'm still a moody bitch, I'm generally a lot happier these days. I like it. I'm keeping things simple and appeciating the things that I have and trying not to let anything get to me so much. I have my random fits of semi-uncontrollable anger (like the other day, when I really had to hold myself back from bitchslapping some stupid woman who was taking forever withdrawing money from the ATM machine even though there was a looooongass line behind her) BUT...yeah, I'm happier now. :)

6. My parents will be coming here from HK and my aunt from England will also be visiting, for Christmas!

7. Aiming to get my hair cut and dyed again before the end of the year.

8. Over him, and the other him. Pretty much. I haven't seen both in quite awhile, but I've stopped drowning myself in the misery they have both caused me. Why should I? Did I even have to? No.

Okeydokey, that's all! For now! Toodles!

Put an 'X' next to the things you have done or accomplished.

( ) snuck out of the house
(x) gotten lost in your city
(x) seen a shooting star
( ) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas (went grocery shopping in hk)
(x) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
(x) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
(x) done drugs
(x) Had alcohol
() laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) swore at your parents
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
(x) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
(x) broken a bone
(x) been high
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
( ) flashed someone (unknowingly...)
( ) saw a therapist
(x) played spin the bottle
( ) gotten stitches
(x) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
() been to Disneyland
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(x ) stolen something from your job (paperclips?)
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(x) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children (not literally... weh)
(x) seen someone die
(x) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi (love!)
( ) Been snowboarding
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) lost a child
(x) gone to college
( ) graduated college (one of these frickin' days)
( ) done hard drugs
(x) tried killing yourself
( ) fired a gun
(x) purposely hurt yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) miss someone right now

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I swear, I'll write an actual post soon.